Well. It's been awhile hasn't it eh? Just busy. With events in my life. All related to Gap somewhat. Working at Gap has taught quite a lot about the retail industry. You know, when I go back to Malaysia I will continue on with working in the retail industry. Not doing crappy sales rep job but more on a upper management level like those ppl who decide what trends they wanna market, what material to use, what kind of promotion needed and all that. I think that's great.

I met interesting ppl while working at Gap. I met this girl who is the sweetest thing in the world-despite being overly emotional sometimes especially while under the influence of alcohol. But this sweet blonde thing has become like one of my cool ppl to hang out with. AND her boyfriend is equally hot. Oh he is just hot. There were times when I just wanted to get into his pants and there were times when my radar was pinging HARD. But after hanging out with them several times, I came to the conclusion that I am not an evil person and that they truly love each other. I rather have them as friends than to cause trouble.

Anyway, remember Gap boy? Well, lately we had really big sexual tension between us. But this boy treats me like a yo-yo. There will be times when I get the feeling that he wants me and he is inviting me into his boy sex realm. But then when I do go into it, he pushes me away. Granted he will be busy with his college work and stuff but seriously just tell me what you want from me. Anyway last night was the final night we can see each other before I leave here. Again it just didn't happen. I was hoping we could go out for dinner but he was busy with his Tap class and than he had to packed his stuff and he had a morning flight this catch today. So what are the chances of him going "hey wanna hang out?". Zilch. I was a lil upset about it but I got over it. I have other important things on my mind now.

Two more days before flying "home". I will miss Miami. I will definitely miss the life here. What lies ahead of me. I dunno but I hope it's for my own good. I'm scared.

Yeah I know, it's been a long time since I last blogged but you know, I dun think anyone is reading this haha. So it's not like I have an audience wanting to know what is going on next in my life.

Nothing much to say for now really. I got my ticket to go home. I shipped all my stuff last week. Just waiting for the time to go home while in the meantime working at Gap. I get paid this week-wohoo!-and I must buy some clothes before I go especially if I get HUGE discounts at Gap. Oh I must tell them I'm leaving.

Anyway, I just wanna experience hot boy on boy sex before I leave. Can anyone help me with that?

Hola. Sorry for the delay in blogging-do I have an audience? Let me know! E-mail me!! :)

South Beach was great. Mainly because I got to let my hair down and have some fun. And I had a really good eye candy to ogle at. Yes, my friend's bf. He is so hot. Thank God I brought my camera and took pictures hehehe. If only he makes a move on me.....is it wrong for me to think about getting it on with him even though he is with my friend. I have a feeling about him but then that could be my wishful thinking. Sigh. I think he is so hot. Please make him mine. Or at least find a boy like him to give me. Non-asian please. :)

Working at Gap has been good. I just gotta find the right time to tell them I'm leaving. Hmmmmm.

Off to eat chicken. I want to eat boys. :)

Yes, I'm horny as hell. I want to get some action before I leave the States dammit.

Well. I got paid yesterday. And it's quite enough for me at the moment. I am so happy with joy. :) AND I'm going out to South Beach tonight. Woohoo. The first time in several months me going out to South Beach and clubbing haha. It's one of my friend's 21'st b'day and she wants to celebrate it with a bang. :) I met her while working at the Gap, she and I were hired at the same time. She's here in Miami for the summer to be with her boyfriend (who is SUPER hot) who is working for UM for the summer or something. Anyway, it looks like she is going to quit the Gap soon which is ironic cause I will have to do that too hahahahaha. First I found out she lives on campus like me-illegally though not with boyfriend cause I'm staying with good friends but then nobody wants me :( - and now this. It's really amazing. And funny. I hope we'll have fun tonight. I got paid for the first time in about five months and now clubbing. :) Great.

As for Gap Boy? Hmmmm. We'll see.

Pointless. Whatever. Fuming mad. Yes, I WAS in a bad mood last night. Reason? Gap boy. I went to see him, knock on the door and I swear he was in. No answer. I felt like a huge lemon. LEMON. I wasted my time for this shit. Granted it was 11:30pm but hell college students don't sleep early do they? Shiiiit. I was angry and I was ready to beat the crap out of anything. So I instead visit my friend Alex on another floor and hung out with him and his mother who is here to visit him. Anyway, I dun see the point in pursuing this idiot Gap boy. He's not even cute at all anyway, I'm just doing it because I just wanna have some fun and it seems he was interested in me. Now, oh well. Who gives a flying shit. I'm meant to be single for the rest of my lives. Sigh.

Today is work at Gap. I want money dammit. And that's another issue that is irritating me at the moment. That and father. When I go back to Malaysia. All hell will break lose with my father and mother. They will feel my wrath. Too much to go to into details but let's just say by me going home to Malaysia for the first time in five years is to set a lot of things straight with my family. I just about had enough of their shit and I will so let them know how I feel about them. This time face to face. I am so ready for it. Once I have everything settle, I might even disown them. Maybe not but I will most likely care less about them.

Whatever. I hate boys. Especially that idiot who does not bother to answer the door. Bitch.

Whatever. Last night went to see Gap boy again. Didn't stay long as he wanted to go shower and he had to study for his test tomorrow (today). At this point I don't see anything will happen between us. I don't even know if we're both on the same page. Fuck it. Will I go see him again? I dunno. I might do it tomorrow but I dun wanna look too desperate or suspicious. Man, what the hell.

Last night also found out that an ex Hurricane football player got arrested because he shat on some girl's laudry basket. Two months ago. I thought it could have been a desperate attempt by the girl for money but then this morning my friend (who knows the football players well) said that he is a lil bit loose in the head. Hmmmm. And apparently another ex player got arrested for DUI. Thank God my boy Matt Walters is not like that. I hope.
Oh God, gotta work tonight at the Gap. As much as I think I'm good at it, I don't really care much for it. It's not something you wanna do for the rest of your lives.

Work was usual yesterday at the Gap. I think my manager like me as she said that I do a great job in sales. I was at first sent to the fitting room-to fold clothes after ppl had tried them on (ewe!!!!) but she came in and wanted me to work at sales cause I'm good at it hahaha. I love doing it anyway, I just don't like folding clothes and putting them back in their position and my shifts usually lasts till the very end of the night. Urgh.

Nothing happened when I went to see Gap boy again. We were talking and getting to know each other but then he had a phonecall and he had to take it because it was something to do about him living off campus with his friends and they wanna discuss something (that's what I was told). Anyway, will I go visit him again? Sure hell I would. I dun get this sort of chance in Malaysia man. Damn conservative freaks! Anyway, I had to wait two days after the visit-dun wanna look too desperate haha. But tomorrow, I sure as hell would go baby! So...to be continue hahaha.